Saskatoon hosted a seminar for church leadership today.  Four of us went.  Others from local area Alliance churches also attended.

Morris Dirks was one of the speakers.  He was in my youth group when I was 16.  Now, almost 40  years later we have covered much the same course.

In our teens our youth group came alive.  We were all seeking Jesus.  Bible studies and prayer time, talking to others about Jesus, hanging out together.  Many of us felt a distant call to go into church ministry.  Many of us did.

Time intervened.  We began to look for ways to increase church attendance, provide the best programs or even start new ministries.  Somewhere in between we lost the pure motive of following Jesus — or perhaps it was just diluted.  We were distracted even though, in some short seasons of life, we were brought back to passionate experiences with Jesus.

At some point, a crash resulted.  And that story seems to be repeating itself among many of us of that same age and time.  What we are seeing is that our activities have become our way of pleasing people or getting approval or even just looking good, instead of experiencing Jesus more and more.

A shame.

And now we are trying to regain ground.  Which is to release control back to God.  Or as as been said by another "We must die to live."

Exciting!!  Passion can return in later days.  And may that passion rise even more!