Being Amazed

This new year has been a new thing.  I use the word thing, because I’m not quite sure how to describe it.

For the techie geeks, I’ve found that I still enjoy the techie stuff — and love to adventure into the virtual realm of bits and bits.  I’ve just switched over to using Word (I started with MultiMate many years ago, then to WordPerfect, and by sheer dint of peer pressure have moved to Word).  I’ve been watching the continued evolution of computers — the ipod touch is a nice touch (and even that is now getting dated!).  But that’s not where my heart is.

For the weight watchers, I’ve found my ideal weight is coming closer.  I’ve been weighing myself daily, sometimes more often.  I’ve been watching what I eat with almost religious fascination.  Someone mentioned that the people who maintain the body shape they desire are those who are constant in keeping tabs on their progress.  But that’s not where my heart is.

For the mood swingers, I’ve found a bit more of a “normal” in my life.  The swings of the past year have become shorter.   I’m watching my stressors.  I’m taking  a day off each week.  Those around me are having to adjust to the welcome balancing of my highs and lows.  But that’s not where my heart is.

For the pastoral managers, I’ve found a renewal of my administrative bent.  I’m keeping detailed attendance of various church activities.  I’m following up more consistently on those who are absent.  I’m thinking ahead with visions of our local church in the short and long term.  But that’s not where my heart is.

And that is just a sampling of some of the progress over these past few months.  But, where is my heart?

My heart is following hard after God.  I can’t say that I’ve found the rut that will keep me on this track.  Some days I’m less than happy with my progress.  But at least I’m trying to keep a heightened track of that progress.  And my sense is that God is working to keep me on that path.  I sense His delight in me, I experience those “ah-ha” God moments and I’m cautiously optimistic that God has me here for just such a time as this!

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