I’ve been trying to describe to myself what is happening in my life. With the passing of my wife, I have a certain urgency upon me. Not every day, not every minute, often in spurts and most often in a deep settled peace.
In the midst of urgency I remind myself that I can’t change everything but I can change some things.
Yesterday I had two people who pushed me to consider where I’m at.
I have settled in. I sleep in a single bed. I have to think about my next meal. I know I can reach out but I can’t touch the person who was my companion for almost 40 years.
At the same time I’m moving out. One of my friends yesterday asked if I was willing to be spontaneous, or if I needed to control everything that was happening. Another asked me to consider a change in emphasis in ministry. Both very legitimate questions.
I had developed a slogan for our church lately. And now the three prongs are coming home to roust. I desire to be: Submitted to Christ, Committed to the Community and Eager to Serve.
I wonder where that will take me??
Take your time, Ron. Don’t let people pressure you to change anything too soon. Some things, yes, have to be adjusted, but it takes time to adjust your emotions and to really think straight after such a change in your life.
Oooh, Ron, yes do take your time with all decisions for the next year or so. Relax, readjust, take it slow. All our prayers friend.